There is a certain amount of insecurity in all of us. However, because the artist is always subjected to public scrutiny, he/she is more likely to suffer from acute insecurities.
Every time I create a piece and put it out there, I find myself in the most vulnerable position, which of course feeds my insecurities. The moment I finish a work that I am happy with, I start feeling insecure, because I feel that I might never be able to top it, and fear that all my best work is already behind me. I am plagued by insecurity every time I even sense a creative block approaching. Because of my insecurities, I am prone to fits of self doubt – Is my work good enough? Will it be appreciated? Do I deserve all the attention I am getting? Am I misunderstood?
These self doubts can paralyze me if I let them. But they can also make me go though a process of introspection, which helps me affirm my ground and excel.
“Together” 60 x 72 Acrylic on Canvas 2008
Photo by Mher Vahakn
